Derelict 2: Not-Silence

Inspired after her morning activities, Amelia decided to try cooking for lunch. While ship could produce simple foods that fulfilled all her nutritional needs, the last thing she wanted to eat was another bowl of yogurt. Luckily it also produced all the ingredients needed for any recipe in its memory.

The replicator her dad had installed in the kitchenette knew only a few recipes. Most of them required the stove. Amelia was nervous about using the stove. Her dad had never let her go near it as a child, lest she burn herself. A salad seemed easy enough and safer.

Amelia mixes her freshly chopped salad with two wooden tongs. She looks happy.

Her dad had always said, “If you can cook for yourself, you can do anything.” Amelia’s salad tasted nothing like her dad’s.

Fork in mouth, Amelia does not seem to be enjoying her salad.

That afternoon she struggled to recapture her morning’s optimism. She worked in the garden replacing the plants that had died from neglect. Usually gardening would lift her spirits. Today, surrounded by more evidence of failure, it felt like a chore. The ship hummed.

Amelia kneels in the garden room in front of small pot. She is planting a vegetable, I think.

She tried reading, but the lines wavered across the page. Commas chasing each other down the margins, words sliding in and out of focus. The ship’s ventilation system thunked. Meaning was lost.


Sitting on her bed (in her underwear), Amelia slams the book shut and throws her arm in the air.

She took a deep breath and started a second painting. Another joy horse would do her good. But the colors blurred as words had and the paint brush felt alien in her hand. The brush slipped and paint dripped down the canvas. The ship’s circulators whirled on.

“Aarg!” Amelia scratched out her work in anger. “Shut up!” She screamed at the ship.

Amelia in front of her "angry" paining. Black and red scribbles.

As a child she’d barely noticed the sounds of the ship – always in the background. The hum of the ventilation. The click-whirl of the circulators turning on and off and the mysterious muffled clunks. Back then, there were other people around, talking, laughing, shouting, being, distracting. They were louder than the ship. Then, the hum had been comforting. The sounds meant the ship was working, that it was living and supporting life.

Now, it was an ever-present irritant. Distracting her, causing her thoughts to skip and derail. “Shut up! Shut up!”

Amelia on her bed, both hands raised in anger.

Amelia shouted to hide from that ever-present hum. She shouted merely to think above the noise. Words spilt from her like blood from a wound. She could not stop speaking or the ship’s not-silence would devour her.

Amelia talking to herself on the bed.

Amelia talking to herself on the bed. She doesn't look happy.

Amelia talking to herself on the bed. She doesn't look happy. Her arms fail wildly as she speaks.

Amelia talking to herself on the bed. She doesn't look happy. Her arms fail wildly as she speaks. Poor Amelia.

She kept talking long past her bedtime. Long past when sleep would have claimed her. Exhausted she shouted until she was hoarse and then beyond. Until she could no longer hear the ship or herself.

Close up of Amelia on the bed, growling at the ship.

She must have slept for she woke. She was still exhausted, her mind gritty and her throat raw. But mercifully the ship’s hum no longer bored into her skull. Her thoughts were audible again, her mind her own.

She had cereal for breakfast. “One moment at a time.” The ship would not defeat her so easily.

Another day. Amelia sits eating cereal. She looks "fine."

Chapter 3: Evolution >


  1. This is so powerful. Third person limited works so well here–I think that as readers we need just that pause of detachment which, I feel, she experiences, too, even in the midst of it all!

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    • Sometimes her story comes to me in first person, but I always change it. It would be too intense honestly to be inside her head all the time. Plus you make a good point about detachment. Can it be too intense and detached at the same time? Because I defiantly agree that the isolation she feels comes through in third person really well. I wouldn’t be surprised if she talks to herself in the third person. Glad you’re enjoying it.

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      • Yes, I think it can be intense and detached simultaneously–and the detachment somehow both offers a safe and quiet resting spot in the midst of the detachment while also amplifying it, perhaps through contrast. Like how loud noises sound so super loud once one is simultaneously aware of the silence containing the loudness.

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  2. I love this! The screenshots and the writing capture the feeling of quiet isolation and creeping madness in the most wonderful way! I hadn’t heard of this room challenge before, but it sounds like a cool challenge. I really like how you’ve made this “room” into a ship with an evidently less than perfect journey.

    The writing feels at times like something I could find written on the walls of a place where someone has been alone for a long time. So it’s perfect for this. And the descriptions and the “commas chasing each other” and the “click-whirls” and other lovely, lively wordings are just amazing and really help me get into Amelia’s head and into the isolated space.


    • I’m so glad you’re enjoying it! Amelia is my absolutely favorite sim to have written. She’s mad, but understandably so – I can *just* imagine the solitude she’s been going through. Her metaphors run rampant style comes very easily to me…perhaps too easily? 😀

      At this time, it’s been probably 2 or 3 years of aloneness. (Both of us are very shaky on the passage of time here.)

      When I first heard of this challenge I knew I wanted to do it, but I wanted a believable reason for someone to be stuck in a room. Spaceships came to mind rather quickly – which tells you a lot about my mind.

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      • Spaceships are a good answer! I like your mind. 😀 Reminds me of the time when I was fifteen and I wanted to do this big project at my art school and I could pick whatever topic I wanted, and my thought process went like: “What? Anything? But that’s way too many options, I’ll never figure out what to- A HOUSE ON THE MOON!”

        I like how Amelia’s madness is pretty subtle. She’s mostly functioning but there are many hints that she isn’t quite all there anymore.


        • There are bad days for her as well. Where she doesn’t do anything for days. But most of the time she’s doing her best and figuring out how to trick herself into bothering.

          Ooh – houses on the moon – that sounds like me – I once did a college report on an alien race I invented!! I’ll admit to being just a bit of a SF freak.

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  3. The idea that the constant hum not just being white noise but filling all the silence like water toward corners is eerie and I can completely understand her need to fill the space with her own noise.

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